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Friday, July 06, 2007

I understand the feeling of pain.
I understand the feeling of being left behind.
I understand the feeling of being stuck in a hole.
I too understand the feeling of being in the dark.

I use to be the one encouraging people when they are depress over things and its very easy for me to ask about them. But now, i cant even sort out my own problems in my mind. My mind has become really complicated. I dont even know what i want or what i need. I just feel so damn sick of standing alone without anyone beside.

Now i know why people are writing diary. Its to write whats deep within which you cant tell anyone. Or rather, they wont understand because i cant even understand whats this damn feeling thats pulling me down.

Why? Whats this feeling?

Outwardly, nobody can tell how i feel. What is the feeling deep within the heart. Somehow, i understand the word Depression because i think i have it. Just that im controlling it by laying it aside. But still, problems will still exist if its not solved.

I miss the time when i have so many people beside me whom i can talk to, whom i can share my Joy and Woes within me and share their problems with me. Now i dont even dare to speak when someone is down. I will just ask them to smile. Thats the best i can do because no comfort in the world can really calm the restless mind and heart within anyone.

No matter how exciting life may seems, its still meaningless - Jordon

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