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Sunday, August 27, 2006

bEen lying on my bed since 4 or earlier.. but i just cant get to slp.. until like 5am now..
i just feel a sudden feeling of lost-ness. i just wonder why memories just start to flow back one by one...
it really sucks when there're super good memories but you cant hold on to them forever.. and its like the opposite situation as compared to those memories.
i just cant imagine that i'm being bless with so many good friends and those people around me. but i've lost them just like that..
hAiz..

memories... memories...

my mind just keep thinking about them when i dont want to.. because it can really make me cry... feeling so lost.. feeling so empty.. whats life man.. whats friends.. whats family..

what good does it make to follow my God... i cant even follow Him well... ARhG~ such a failure.. im sure God is crying for me... all the while being so disappointed because of someone that He love so much.. how can i ever comprehend God, how can i even comprehend the meaning of following christ... bACkslided piece of shiT...

doing things that really puts my body down... is it worth it? whats the use of knowing but yet cant control it... nobody really cares.. thats the problem... because i dont hAVe a goal, or i dont live for anyone. thats why i dont really care.. i use to live for the person i love, controlling myself.. but now i dont have.. and i dont live for anyone.. whose my target..? its painful... seriously...

2:11 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

When you are chilling out with your friends, there must be liquor and cigrette. Lacking of either really bring down the mood. wooo~

Was chilling with a good friend under his block ytd. Only smoking.. No water no nuts... what the heck.. we slAck until 7am in the morniNG.. hAHa~ before that go katong play pool. woo~ shioK.. at least i did not lose too much to my friend. pro sIA..

One of our topic is this... its about girls la.. we are talking about the mindsets of guys and girls. when guys say that they dont like a girl anymore, they will still think about the girl and miss her alot.. but when girl say dont like, she practically dont care about that guy anymore... yeah.. i agree this to a 100%. cause i've experience this like twice...~ hMmM.. maybe its because we dunno what those girls are thinkiNG.. but all the girls that ive met and my friends gfs, they are all like that.. hMmm~ what man... this is so sucking.. its hard being emotional beings. so im gonna take away those compassion in me and play tough. But its hard too... but its better than being too sad after something happens.

yEa, enlisting on the 18th sept 2006. oOoOO~ hAVe been waiting for this day for super lonG...finally... NS buddies, IM COMING!!!

I dunno why some bloody gays are scared to go ns... and mostly are older than mE.. hAHaha.. they just cant accept the fact that they are in ns... gAY shit.. fuCK oFf to malaysia la...~

HavinG no confident with myself... hMmM... but its okay la.. at least its sort of cool to be abit self centered sometimes... To hell with all idiots in this world...!!!!

3:33 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

yTd waS the bANd prAc.. its a thursday.. went to katong shopping centre to play pool myself first before going upstairs for jamming. Its kinda boring because that kind of band is not my kind of band... hAiz.. wOoO~~ boReD to death everyday... yAWn...

Have been playing pool since monday, the whole week.. Haha.. today stayed at home cause many have gone to other places. wOoO... i've got nothing to do sia...

This full week of pool is kiNda crowded because we've all made new friends. that stupid guy wanna borrow money.. doTs.. no money still wanna go chiong.. go and die la.. hAHaha.. but can tell that he's bored cause he keep messaging me asking me and my friends to go out.. doTs.. but he's not our kind of friend la.. those girls also damn noisy.. diAoz...

i want a fight man... so enthu for a fight. oNe of my friend wanna teach me hoW to fiGht
woOO~ cOol... byE. noTHing to say liao..

5:04 AM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

woOo~~ iM liKe so damn tired now... having stomach pain now because while eating steamboat at a friend's house ytd, i was challenge to drink a cup of rootbeer plus a small bowl of chili. cRAp siA.. hAHa~ buT its quite fun la... oH..

before yeSteRday, went to liquid kitchen again~ wOOO~ dont hAve to pay a fuck. cauSe before that we've bought a bottle of barcadi and the mixer is FREE!!! wOo~ shIoK siA..

know this stupid guy whom i thought that he's damn big. buT shiT him siA.. so hum ji.. tio tAi chi still need girl to help him solve. i nearly tio cause that stupid counter girl heard us talking. and thAT counter girl is the paikia girlfriend. a fuckiNG biTch. buT dont hAve lA.. Dunno why.. but if tio i will be damn excited at the sight of that person's blood oozinG ouT.. oOo~~ shioK siA.. hAHaha...

itS been like 3 days straight that ii've been poolinG.. wOo~ shIOk.. buT dAmn tired.. yAwn.. later still have to go for that stupid band practise... suCk ..

its been like almost a week since im online~ maybe online awhile when im bathing la.. dint know my fans came back and spam my name again~~ hAHaha!! fUCk you chEebY... come find me la fuckers.. hAHahA~~ im always prepared and you better be prepared cause if i find you, i'll be so damn excited to see blood coming out from either me or you.. yea... fuCknUt, come look for me le.. im damn borEd cAnt you see.. And you are damn bored too right? fUCKing chEeBy kiA.. your mom is a bloody cow~ yeAH.. fUCk..

11:47 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

first lets say about saturday and sunday. These 2 bloody days that ive to work. Shit... until im like so damn tired... I've flat foot, both, and both really hurt alot after walking for hrs for these 2 days.. suCks mAn~ whAts worst. 2 stupid indian wanna at punk sia... if the boss is not my aunt's friend, i would have punch those indians... shiT thEm badly..

Today is tuesday 1.13am... coooL~ MorniNg i went for pool with 2 friends... then after that at fusion we got to know about 5 to 6 new friends ar... 1 is the counter girl and the rest is her friends. they are like so bloody lame can... hAhahA... lOok so old but yet so childish.. wOoOo~~ suppose to go clubbing together.. but they went to cineleisure. Then after that 2 of my friends, one of their girlfriend and we went to liquid kitchen for drink at serangoon garden... hAHa.. one of my friend nick "LamEr", lose a game and he has to drink something.

The game is like this. Cover a glass of barcadi + coke, "burben" cokE... with a piece a tissue on top with a rubber band with a five cent coin on top, and then burn it with cigrette. and when the 5cent coin drop inside, that person have to drink the thing with those cigrette ashes. hAha~ itS likE so damn fun lA...~ hAHa.. I lOSt the firest round cause i thought the next person is suppose to drink the thing if i can let that 5 cent coin drop in.. stupid mE.. hAha~

buT then after that "lAmeR" lOSe 2 RouND straight~~ hAHa~~ hE's likE damn piSs LA.. HAha~ then the 4th round my friend's gf lose and she have to drink it. Then lamer lose agAIn~~ hAHaha.... yeAh...

And thats monday~~ wOoOo~~

today, later at about 10+, im like going to repeat my monday agAIn~ hAHahA... buT with more peoplE i THink... wOoaoOo~~

cOoOL....~~!!! +D

10:16 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

its like 445am now, saturday...woO~~ I slept ytd at 5pm and woke up at 3am.. how cool... hAha.. watching bleach and eating two packets of myojo mee and a cot fish. now im like so damn full.. haha..

hmmM~ its quiet in the night, or early morning and i really enjoy this silence. I can like think about lots of things. What i wanna do in the future, and the past memories. Sometimes it do hurt alot... haha..

It seems like after i left that place, i make friends... hAHa.. funny thing... and they are like pouring out their problems... wow... i feel so good as a friend whose not seen by them.. how cool.. haha.... CONTINUE!!! haha... cause im like so free to listen.

There are many things in this world thats so weird... Like us, being made by God. Thank Him. But sometimes i really don like it at all.. ITs so painful to live in this world.. ouCh..

Things that you really like can really become the things that you hate alot when something happened. mAny thIngs in life.. I've learn so many things during these few months... Super lot.. haha~ Miss many things... Lost many things... haiz... Thats the painful thing... and it takes a very long time to heal.... wooO~ Guess i understand others better now.. but yet i dunno how to encourage anymore... ~ yAWn...

But to those people who are losing your faith in christ, dont lose it because its really something that you cant affort to lose. Because of Christ... :D

God bless you~

1:46 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

wow.. for this past two days ive been like sleeping in the morning and waking up at 6pm~ wOoO~ its seriously a waste of time ar... but even so, i dunno what to do in the morning. unless im practising my drums and guitar.

Read a blog article that was written very long ago... whao.. that really makes me damn sad and angry... i still dont understand what ive done... hmmM.. but nVm la..

Im Still finding my clique of friends~~ I WANNA FORM A BAND!!!! AR... why is it so hard to form a band... who around me plays instrumentS? juSt tell me ar.. haha..

yAWn... jUSt feel so boRed evErydAy... no purpose, no nothing. I dunno what im living for..

buT i ve got a plan~ Thats to set up a JAmMing studio cum cAfE next time. stupid government waste so much of my time... Ar... shit...

WoOo~ nothing to say liao..

3:06 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

I hate people who do things their own way. What they think they thought they know. I swear that if i know whose that J. , and these two person who tagged. They will be dead. Especially J...

_=>HatReD<=_

11:29 PM