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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

28th Feb 2007.

Man, its been damn long since im so busy out at camp. Doing one thing half way, another thing just came. My sir is really an asshole.. stupid.. Ask people to do this and that. Ask me to clear one stupid dirty store room and that made my nose damn itchy because of the dust. When will he become more caring to his own man?
Edmund got scoldings today. And he really deserves it. For Lying, Peeping into toilet while doing toilet defect, announcing to the drivers that commander ask him to deliver some shit and some lame stuff.

The black man asked us what has he contribute so far. Clement: Jokes. Me: Doing double jobs and some other stupid stuff. And whats more lame. When the black man asked him where is his phone, he lied to him saying that he dint bring it because he was caught ytd for bringing camera phone. Then, someone called him. hAhahA!! and it vibrates and there's sound because of some metallic stuff inside his pocket. We already tried to cover up by not telling. But too bad.. Heaven wants him punish... cant help but laugh. But i wasnt in the mood because i got scolded too for not doing work. But in fact, i had finished all my jobs.

Black: JoRdon, why you always sit around joking with the rest when i asked you to sit at my desk and do your work?
Me: Sir, i had finished all my work already...
Black: DonT come and lie to me ok, show it to me.

Then i showed him.. and he's damn embarrassed.. omg.. if any of you'all were there, you would have laugh your head out. Thats what i like about it. wahahAHa...

And mdm is getting very irritating. Whenever i decline helping her with her stuff because im busy, she would say stupid stuff like.. " aiya, jordon becoming like martin...only do his work only..." and some other shit.. fuck la, im really busy what, cant you see you blind old woman. and now, im gonna stop helping her receive her stuff... fuck her.. the black man already give me the priviledge but "ORDERING" me.. haha.. so im gonna use it against her.. since im just helping her.. now im gonna stop.

Camp really is getting more and more desolated for me. Its becoming a place where it really frustrate me and my friends are gonna ORD soon... its like one next friday and april another one.. shit man.. how am i gonna survive my ns life without getting angry everyday. Edmund is enough to make me angry... and the black is giving me 3 extras. its like wtf la. But im gonna end the three extras consecutively. Friday to monday.. sacrifice one week.. at least i can train my body inside camp.. lol...

I want my freedom.. yawnz...

5:50 AM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

2:24 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

18 Feb 2007, Sunday. Chinese new year the first day!

just read an email from someone. THink its really nice..

$20.00

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special- Don't EVER forget it." If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. "

And remember: amateurs built the ark .. professionals built the Titanic. If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

6:42 AM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

17 Feb 2007, Sat, Chinese New Year's eve. 10.24pm

Compassionate heart kills yourselve everytime. YOu wont get anything from having that kind of character. THe character that cares too much. YOu will only get something for yourselve. Frustration and the building of anger in your heart.

But whenever i see people happy, i will feel happy for them. And when they are in a bad situation, i will feel sad for them. Too much of this... really... Fuck this stuck in between character of mine. Having Anger and too much Compassion.

5:59 AM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

11 Feb 2007, Sunday 850 am..

man.. wasted my saturday away sleeping the whole day..

On friday after camp, i went over to mokkie's house to play mahjong throughout the whole day. And the forfeit that day was to shave your ARMPIT!!! wAHahaha! and i wasnt the one who lost the most. THank GOD!!! Everyone was there before mahjong for some card game. black jack was the first one. And actually i lost. but after that i won back and think i got back a profit of 10cents. hAha! not bad.

then mahjong till morning 6am and i slept for 30mins and have to go to Yishun Safra because of my camp's 6th Anniversary. man.. dint slp the whole day man and im damn shag for that day. hAve to be the timer for the swimming event and those swimmers really wet my pants by splashing water on me while coming to me for the points. haha.. well its quite fun looking at those swimmers challenging each other.. Took a whole packet of snickers home for myself.. wAHahaha!! then went back, and found out that i lost my keys again... stupid.. now i don even know if i've left it at mokkie's house.

he called around 11.37pm last night to ask me out. but in the end he dint call me.. stupid.. and i slept till this morning 830am. haha.. really.. slping too much can make you weak. now im feeling damn soft.. haha..

Friend's O level result is out. THank God mokkie scored 18 points. Stupid schools, started CCA points this year.. Suck la.. how come i dint get my 2 points reduced? Ive got cca also... damn it.. sch really suck.. NS Suck more.. haha.. but i made quite a few good friends there in camp.

Chinese new year is only next week and i haven buy any clothings yet. lol... how how.. and im locked at home because i dont have my own keys.. have to wait till afternoon for my mom to come home first... LAME LA!!! my extra set of keys i cant even find.. dunno where i kept it.. yawn.. WHERE CAN I BUY NICE SHIRTS!!! can anyone tell me and bring me there?? sian...

~~PEACE OUT~~
!~JORDON~!

4:51 PM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

8th Feb 2007 Thursday.

wow.. today is my first time, SHOUTING AT MY SIR!!! wAhahaHA!!! and i feel superbly happy because i manage to let out few percent of my anger. I shouted at him uncontrollably.. However, it felt really GREAT!!! WoOoHOoOo~~!!!!

Finally i managed to master PIR report after it has been delayed for like almost a month already.. fuck that black ass... Just dont understand why he has to go around pointing middle finger whenever he talks.. HAHA!! i wAS imitating him and i was laughing when he's telling us what to do.. hAha!! Stupid fucker..!

Camp is getting really really boring... everyone of the older batch are gonna go off in like 2 weeks? haiz.. sucks man.. hopefully we'll meet up often outside. BEcause we are not just camp mates.. we are Brothers! wOo... Thank goodness there're a few new people who came in, and aid me in my reports. If not Mr Martin and Edmund will be bashed up by Jordon the Great with His Fist... Although its still swollen.. lol...

am at weihoong's house playing mahjong ytd. WOw, just KANG KANG KANG and i only manage to make a lost of 20 points out of 300. and thats 60 cents!!! wAHahaha!!! just playing for fun la.. i dunno how to play also.. lol...

i wanna organise dinner during one of the days in chinese new year at my house.. Any takers? lol.. hopefully my friends will come and we shall ENJOY each other's Company!! woOhOo!!

Hope to make myself happy during the meet ups... i haven been happy since a long time... just a forceful smile on my face everyday.. yeah..

Thank God you all are really happy... really.. be glad..

4:10 AM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

04 February 2007, 11.12pm.

Today is the first day i smoke in my room with no one around. haha!! thats why i like about sunday because no one's home.. well.. its boring because ive got nothing to do the whole day. Except watchin Eyeshield 21. 9 episodes from afternoon till night time.

But had a break because my father came over to help me check out my worn out door thats like gonna crack and my room door. And now, i dont even have that handle thing because its taken out. Spoilt due to last year when my sister kicked it real hard and even the wooden door cracked..

Being a musician is my dream. A drummer in the band, professional band and making it my career. But i cant even find any contacts or any clues of what to study about musician ship.. thats like the most stupiest thing in the world.. Wanting to be one and not being able to find one is like so dumb.. Im like just living in my own world of fantasy thinking of how i will be like in the future.. Shit...

Well... it really suck when your friends around you are having a different interest as you or doesnt really care about anything. wondering whats on their mind... hMmm.. talk is cheap... really.. thinking is stupid. Dreaming is dumb... being a fool... yawn...

when will i find anybody who will lead me into this music world..... ARH!!!!

7:13 AM