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Saturday, January 27, 2007

28 Jan 2007 Sunday, 4.48am..

sigh... yet another meaningless week.. there's really nothing worth aiming for... not even my passion anymore... i just cant figure out how those people who pursue their dreams and gets it.. i just dunno how to do it.. i dunno what i can do to achieve my dreams.. dont even know what to do.. am like giving up on this already... really.. its sickening trying to find something to do everytime.. trying to get people out just to waste some time, doing things that are stupid..

am tired.. but just dont wanna sleep.. it literally took me about 15 mins to sleep ytd. was over at weihoong's house till 6am then went home..

Friday's concert was fantastic with my friends all there watching. Im really grateful to them for coming, wasting $10 just to sit there and watch me and my band playing. Although the songs that my band played isnt their type of music, they still come. Omg... haha.. really am happy..
Practising for one month just aiming for this 26th jan's concert, it really was a successful one. now i have nothing to aim for.. nothing to look forward for except my ORD date.. probably after that, i wont even know what i can do..

All i want now is to have a clique of friends who we can really share things, do things together and aiming for one thing, that is to strengthen the bond of our friendship.. but i guess it wont happen to me. i can only watch those anime and dream on.. because its totally impossible.. im always the one trying since secondary school to form a strong clique of friends. but i guess they just dont get it.. or am i the one who aint satisfied? it just dint work out for me to have really good and close friends. because my cliques of friends always just breaks up because of their schedule... who dont even try to find time.. hmmm... but who cares anyway.. through those times, ive already create in myself the "Heck care" mindset.. still building up this wall to block the compassion in me.. stopping the flow of love, care and concern for others... who cares about anything.. who cares about me... so yea.. fuck all...

~~PEACE OUT~~
!~JORDON~!

12:49 PM