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Saturday, November 25, 2006

Its 2.44 am on sunday. And im at mokkie's place. Am suppose to be slping cause im tired.. But everytime i go to somewhere comfortable, i just cant get to slp because too much things in my mind for me to think about.

I use to tell people that its better to have something on your mind than a blank mind, which is daydreaming and you cant be bothered with anything around you. Well... I still agree to that.. But just that sometimes you just gotta spend the time thinking resting...

Life is just full of pretence. Even myself. My mindset has seriously changed. I dont know how it change.. I just cant be bothered about some stuff. Mostly lame stuff which people use to laugh at something which is not funny. Is this the so call mature mind? Maybe in the process..

I use to be so damn childish about my thinking... But after i got enlisted, i see a different me. Compared to last time, im not as lazy as last time. Maybe sometimes when im sick like these few days. hmm... Sometimes i just need a friend like everyone else is hoping for. I used to have friends which i can really call them Friend... But it seems like even time can take away all that because of stuffs that i dont really know...

My life is quite confusing but yet simple because there really isnt anything exciting. Its very plain and its easy to understand. But my heart is messy.. Hmmm.. Whats life... its seems so boring... Or rather, its really boring... Just cant stand the boredom that i have to live with everyday.... With phobia at home, and phobia of loneliness. Im always trying to just go out with anyone.. Even those whom i dont really know... Who dont even understand what kind of person i was...

17 this year.. and i have seen quite abit... But there is still many things to learn.. But i guess its enough for me. Trying everytime to make someone happy even if it makes me really turn off... Maybe i should just make myself happy.. lol.. or sometimes i wish that they can think of what others are thinking of how they feel.. I just dont get it...

going to smoke and slp already.. gonna relax my mind...
good day friends..

and If you're really troubled with things and need someone who can understand you, why not approach me? :) not harm trying. God bless all¬¬

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