Saturday, September 02, 2006
"It should also be stated that genuine believers can never totally and forever abandon God in their lives (1 John 3:7-10) since God’s life continually exists on the inside of them and will keep operating in some measure throughout their life by manifesting fruitfulness (Phil. 1:6). "
This is the website.. hmMm.. seriously im confuse about alot of truth. This question, Have i really been a Christian all those years? I dont think so. Im just putting up an act because of the title Christian. WHy do i have to pray for other, why do i have to encourage others when they are down? These questions... Have i surrender to God in the first placE? I have not. And i dont know how. All the while ive been doing things my way... what the heck am i doing all those while... iTs crAp... What does it truly mean by being a christian?
God... God... God... How to see God? I wish i can see God because that'll mean that i'll die. Wont that be good? Haiz... How nice it is to feel God's presence. But yet cant see Him... Sometimes i doubt alot. But i cant show it out because i will stumble many people and confuse them.... What the heck... yeah...
Am i a genuin christian? If im not, why do i miss so many things? Why do i still think of God? ARhg... this is messy... How can i put all my love in the past to GOd alone? I dont wanna love humans anymore.. as in relationship... mAyBe beinG alone is cool... i just wanna feel God's love and embrace... but yet its hard for me.. i cant understand anything... today is sunday... but i aint going to church... its 4am now... this is the second sunday im not going church.. I just feel so lost in church. Feel like a fake. Feel like a crap. Arh... life is such a bore... Life is such a pain... I got nothing to live for...
sian...
12:50 PM
me, myself Name: Jordon Lee Weisheng
Age: 18 in 2007
Date of birth: 22nd June 1989
Location: Singapore
Email: windweisheng@hotmail.com
Hp: 91509875
