Thursday, June 15, 2006
weihoong's house BBQing... wow... it sure was fun.. yeah... but to me, its meaningless anyway.. Its just something that i do because im bored... i dont really enjoy myself.. because not one is anyone closer to me compared to last time.. all my friends are gone. even her..gone forever. And smoking and drinking... i sure can drink alot.. but i cant smoke.. just felt dizzy.. so i wont get hooked and i dont intend to smoke anymore... it just suck..
thursday night... saw her so happily... while im by the side watching her, being hurt inside. and its like so near yet so far. i cant approach her.. i cant talk to her.. so whats the point. It really breaks my heart. Ive backslided. trying to find new meaning... But God is still real...
So Lord, when can i return to you?? Im always thinking about dying... i dont wish to stay in this meaningless world anymore. But if i die, where will i go? I wanna worship God forever, not burn... so when.......................................
im missing her like crazy everyday... But yet...
1:43 PM
me, myself Name: Jordon Lee Weisheng
Age: 18 in 2007
Date of birth: 22nd June 1989
Location: Singapore
Email: windweisheng@hotmail.com
Hp: 91509875