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Thursday, June 15, 2006

Just read something that really hurts me. But because of that, i'll move on.

My guess was correct... old lover... yeah.. know you'll be reading this.. so this is for you.

Thanks for spelling it on your blog.the new one. I've read everything about me. Yeah, every girl that i date, they are just blind in choosing me. 5 months, it has been sweet. Its cool. I love it. When you love someone, yeah you love them so deeply.. But i can tell you arent letting go... Thats why i dont have the sense of security with me. But anyway.. its over... and i dont have to look for answer anymore... Cause you've told me yourself indirectly though. Thanks for everything, for telling it to others too.

And ya, Rachel is just a drummer in my church. So what if she is nice and beautiful? You also dont understand me at all... Yea, both sides.

But i can say that you are really nice to me during the r'ship and i thank you so much for these five tormenting months for you, with you by my side. I just dont wanna quarrel anymore... I dont want any "after breaking off" sickness when we cant even be friends... I really dunno what made you hate me so much...

I'll try to move on... Will stop destroying my life now. Thank you...

My journal of pain stops here.

2:12 PM