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Monday, January 02, 2006

i dunno what is happening behind that small electronic device that sends message... I dunno whats on that girl's mind. I dunno what she's thinking about. nvm if i have to type all this and let people see... I'm just so sick of this relationship sometime... Now am at at her house typing this and she is sleeping behind me.

I dunno when she is lying about somethings and all.. I dunno anything about her... She dun wanna tell me.. Alot of times i've been telling her to tell me even the smallest details... Actually i dont have to do it... because its really the basic of a girlfriend to tell the boyfriend. Vice Versa... i told her alot of things... but i get nothing in return. I feel really cheated somehow... yea.. 100% given but how much do i get back? reading blogs and all... it really suck to see some blogs that really make me angry after things have been solved because many things she still haven tell me... I dunno what code* she is using to call the pas+. I just feel stupid all the time in saying I love you and i miss you. All the message that she sent with I love you and Huggs all that, its just normal with other people... I dont feel special with her in a relationship... I'm not even on her mind when she is having fun...

I feel very lousy// i feel sick// I am really tired//

I am not even respected by even the adults.. I mean what the heck? letting people into the room of my girlfriend while she is sleeping? what is this crap? and now that adult is giving me stupid lousy attitude... adult just dunno what adult has done... isnt it just too crap huh? Not even mature being compared with me.. the least of the respect man...

I just feel that she is not ready for me. she is just so "smart" . I just dunno why girls can control our mindset... boRinG... hAiz... when will the true her come out? I ask her to give up 100% on her past. But she doesnt want... she is still holding on to it and this i can feel it. She is not sensitive to me...

how am i gonna spend my time on this r'ship when i don even know whats going on now?
its just too crap for me to stay in this r'ship... many things i've found out but yet to ask her.. cause i want her to tell me herself... but i doubt she will.. cause she is just too *smart...

-= shITty lIfE wiTh cRap sHits iN it..=- //The agony of a relationship//

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